Back to the drawing board.....

So, now that my stupid cycle showed up, I am back to the grindstone looking for solutions to this mess. Last night was 2 hours of searching and clicking links and comparing. I don't think I have ever been so active in looking for a solution or another way around something as I am now. Right now, I am looking at 6, possibly 8 options.

First thing is first: I need to go back to my Dr. I need a U/S to see if the cyst has shrunk any. If I don't get any answers, I AM going to pitch a fit. I also looked at my most recent bloods....my TSH is high, so that could mean Hypothyroid. Also, from my bloods last year....my DHEA-S and F/Testosterone were BOTH high, so, to the dr's.....if I find this out again, not only will I pitch a fit, I will be looking into lawsuit! They told me that my F/Testosterone was within normal range, when it said RIGHT on the results page that it was HIGH. They never tested my TSH levels before July. I hate the clinic setting! The doctors SUCK!

Then Skylr needs to go for another SA to see if anything has improved. If not, BW for him to see what the issue is.

I then may need an HSG. Which will be another $500.00 out of pocket.

It really just seems never ending! It's upsetting and stressful for me, and I don't really have anyone to confide in and talk to about it, besides Skylr. Sometimes it would help to have another woman to talk to.

Bust

For all my hoping and wishing and thinking that we could beat the odds....nadda. Temps took a nose dive and started spotting. The disappointment is crushing. I just feel so down. And I know that it was a LONG shot anyway, but I was still hoping and hoping. Now, I just feel blah, and down and depressed. The urge to break something and the urge to just break down and sob seem to alternate. I don't know. It's just so crushing and so depressing.

10 dpo

Been 5 days since my last post. If it turns out to be a BFP, then the temp dip 5 days ago was implantation dip! Whoa!!! I have 10 temps above coverline, sooooooo things could be looking good! Fertility Friend gave me 65 early pregnancy points! Maybe Baby! I am 10 Dpo, and if I can hold out, will be testing the week of the 23rd.

On the other good note:
~Heartburn
~different "down below" odor
~Heavy/tender boobs
~Cramps for 2 days on the 6th and 7th (would be after implantation)
~Gassy....Oh my, it's bad!
~Horrible lower back pain

WTF!!!???!!!!???

So, I am in a 2WW.....and trying to do everything *right*! Well, last night, I wanted a GOOD night's sleep....and you would think that would be easy enough to get??? Right???......NO! Around 3am, I kept hearing a strange noise. A clinking noise. I looked around, didn't see anything, went back to sleep. 3:30, I wake up again and hear and do the same. Around 4:00am, I had a weird dream that someone said "the rats are loose" I replied "no, they can't get out". Well, every 20-30 minutes I keep hearing this noise and waking up. At 5am, I finally saw it.....one of our baby rats WAS loose in the bedroom and eating the dog food. I kept hearing her in the dog bowl! I caught her and put her back in the tank, but, I was sleep deprived and when I took my temp, it was all messed up.

I had a dip back to the coverline. Could be good and could be bad. We'll see tomorrow! Maybe tonight I will get some sleep!!!!!

WOW!

So, I actually ovulated on my own!!! Doubtful that it will be a BFP this cycle, but you never quite know. Part of me is still hopeful. We seemed to have timed it perfectly, even though it was not planned on or tried for. So, we'll see. I still can't believe it! The temp spike/drop (thermo shift) are just SO dead ON! Everything is text book ovulation! AMAZING!!! If AF does not show on or before August 22, 2009, then I will have to test to see......WILD! LOL
Chart says I am officially 3DPO

O Date: August 2, 2009




http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/28bba9

What???????

In the world?? Talk about confused! I have been temping and using OPK's and I finally got a + !!!! Yesterday AM and PM!!!! I have no idea if it was right or a fluke! More then likely, won't result in a BFP (but you never know), but, if my temps stay up, it at least means that I OV'd without clomid, soy, femera or anything like that. We shall see what tomorrow's temps will bring. If I dip back down...then I am at a loss. Must have been a fluke + on the OPK. I am excited to see what happens!

I have been on 4 GRAMS of Inositol, 800 mcg of extra Folic Acid and a Multivitamin. So, maybe all this has something to do with it!

Well....

Our first appointment was bittersweet. On one hand I learned a lot, on the other hand, we are getting set back. I found out that I have a tilted Uterus and I have a 5cm cyst on my left ovary. We were also in for a shock with finding out that besides PCOS, a tilted uterus and a cyst we will now battle male factor. The male factor pushed us out of the study. There are other studies, but for now, we need to find a specialist for the MFI. Hopefully it is nothing major, and easily fixed.

It's now just a set back....a hurdle. I have been charting my BBT and using OPK's, but so far at day 19 no ov. I have EWCM and had a temp spike, but I still don't think it was an ov cycle. So now I will be starting Provera to bring on a cycle. I will be using NPC at day 10-26 for up to 2 months to try to shrink the cyst. Hopefully, the cyst will have shrunk, but I will need a US to determine. Then, depending on the MFI, we will either be back on the study, in another study, or I will go on Soy Isoflavones (or maybe Clomid, depending on doctors).

For now, HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE.......it all works.