I know that a lot of good things have happened in my life, but honestly, I am sooooo sick of hearing about other women's pregnancies. I even have had to stay off of the forums because I just can't take it! Some days I get mad, very mad......and some days I am just down about it. I know that we have our "goal" for IVF, but for one, it seems so far away, and who knows what will happen from now till then. I think maybe this is just one of my bad days, where I am just pissed and annoyed and mad at the world.
I am mad about temping, who knows if it is correct or not, I am mad because I just want to relax and take a breather for a weekend, and not think of any of the crap going on. I want to be able to relax and NOT hear about pregnant women or see them or anything. I am mad that I feel guilty when I do things like drink wine or other things that you can't do when you are pregnant (all I am gonna say is "other things") and shouldn't do while TTC, even though there is no way at this point that I could get pregnant naturally.
I guess I am also mad that for all the positive thinking about IVF there is that chance that it may not work, then we are back to the drawing board. I am pissed that we have to do IVF in the first place. To have so many people involved with something that should be a wonderful experience that 2 people share.
I don't know.......
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
It's been awhile
I have not been posting as often as I would like, but you know how it goes! Lots of things have been going on.
The move to North Carolina will not happen. Not only will we save more money staying in NJ, but we will finally have a goal for IVF. Hopefully, it will be able to happen faster/sooner then we thought.
11/25/2009, our 2 year anniversary, Skylr proposed, and of course, I said yes. It not only was exciting, but just felt very much like another part of the puzzle was in place.
I still am temping, even though it is useless. I still wish that we could get pregnant without "help", but I don't think that will happen.
We are looking into health insurance. It would help with the bloodwork, the S/A, and some of the meds for IVF. Which would be a big help. I could get the HSG, and not worry about it. As long as SIRM participates with that insurance, which I have to find out about.
Like I said, lots has been going on.
The move to North Carolina will not happen. Not only will we save more money staying in NJ, but we will finally have a goal for IVF. Hopefully, it will be able to happen faster/sooner then we thought.
11/25/2009, our 2 year anniversary, Skylr proposed, and of course, I said yes. It not only was exciting, but just felt very much like another part of the puzzle was in place.
I still am temping, even though it is useless. I still wish that we could get pregnant without "help", but I don't think that will happen.
We are looking into health insurance. It would help with the bloodwork, the S/A, and some of the meds for IVF. Which would be a big help. I could get the HSG, and not worry about it. As long as SIRM participates with that insurance, which I have to find out about.
Like I said, lots has been going on.
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